Tuesday, December 28, 2004

The End

Today we'll take a break from our usual scheduled programming for an update. I thinks I'll start with my hair......as you can see from the pictures the "ugly faze" I discussed in a previous post has officially arrived. As my nephews grandmother so eloquently stated while staring at me in disbelief (at Christmas dinner mind you) "Oh, don't worry baby... it will grow fast." WTF! Thanks, that really makes me feel better. That's JUST what I needed to hear. Anyway six weeks have passed since the beginning of this process and my desire to stay napptural is slowly starting to dissolve. My first return trip to the stylist didn't go very well. He washed it and re-twisted in section twice the size of the first time. I sat under the hot ass dryer for almost an hour and when I left I looked like I'd stuck my finger in an electric socket. The sections were so big that I had to re-twist several of them. I tried the whole scarf/hat thing but I have a rather large dome so that didn't worked either. I guess I'll just have to deal with it for now.

Next up.....I went to the best concert on Christmas Eve!! After working 7am-7pm Yvette, Kelly and I saw my favorite female singer Ledisi at Yoshis. We even got to take a picture with her! As usual she was amazing and I made it through the whole night without spilling Sake on anyone (don't ask). Afterwards I went home, made a carrot cake (see I do cook sometimes), and watched "Napoleon Dynamite" (my current favorite movie!!!) several time with Yvette who decided to spend the night. Since this was the first time (in 8 years) I've spent Christmas Eve without a significant other I didn't mind to much.

There must be something else I need to talk about but I can't seem to remember what is. Anyway, just in case I don't post again before the new year I hope that 2005 is a wonderful year for you and that all your prayers, hopes and dreams and fulfilled. Happy New Year!





Saturday, December 25, 2004

California Christmas



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Merry Christmas!
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Girls Night Out

It's Christmas night and I'm sitting at work (just like I was during part of Christmas Eve). Anyway, a little about my weekend........Some friends from high school and I went to dinner Wednesday night at MECCA then out for drinks at Martuni's in SF. The food was yummy and....the pictures tell the rest of the story.


Girls Night Out
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Dinner yum!
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....Let the drinking begin
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....drinking led to singing
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pehaps a little to much drinking.
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Goodnight!
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Tuesday, December 21, 2004

Words To Live By

........never NEVER ever, ever, ever eat prunes at work!!! That's it for today.

Sunday, December 19, 2004

Plagiarism

I got this idea from a blog authored by someone I don't know. I think this post is kind of a cop out because I don't have anything else to say today.

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1. B.
2. Bacon
3. Fremit

THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:
1. Songbird
2. Songbirds
3. Prototype
THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. My Voice
2. My laid back personality
3. T&A (enough said)

THREE THINGS YOU HATE/DISLIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. My stomach problems (Lactose intolerant) I guess the fact that it's unusually large sucks too.
2. I can be shy/anti-social
3. Constant urges to shank/Bi*ch slap people for no reason.

THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:

1. African (obviously)
2. Indian (don't hate cause you ain't got good hair like me :-)....Whatever that means)
3. I'm not sure about the rest.

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
1. Going to hell
2. Drowning
3. Barry White

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:

1. Music
2. Yarn and Knitting needles (at the moment)
3. Bath and Body Coconut Lime Verbena Spray.

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1. Blue cargo pants ( stylish huh!..... for work)
2. Ugly black boots (also for work)
3. Black tank top.

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS OR ARTISTS (AT THE MOMENT)
1. Ledisi
2. AlanaDavis
3. Mos Def

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS AT THE PRESENT:
1. "I Cover The Waterfront" Billie Holiday
2. "So sexy" Twista / R.Kelly
3. "Blue Rose" Lizz Wright

THREE NEW THINGS YOU WANT TO TRY IN THE NEXT 12 MONTHS:
1. Playing golf.
2. Getting up before 3pm.
3. Falling in love without fear. (but then again maybe not.)

THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP
1. Freedom to be me.
2. Trust/Security
3. Balance

TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE*:
1. I could watch PBS Nature Specials for hours.
2. I think Andre 3000 is sexy.
3. I love vintage Ford Mustangs.

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
1. A meaningful relationship with God
2. Ambition/Drive/ intelligence/Confidence
3. Height ( >6ft)

THREE THINGS YOU JUST CAN'T DO:
1. Figure out where I put my keys.
2. Figure out anything that has to do with math.
3. Besides the above I can do anything. (with God)

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1. Playing guitar/singing.
2. Sleeping
3. Traveling (although not enough lately)

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BAD RIGHT NOW:
1. Go to sleep
2. Visit Miami /Vegas would be nice too.
3. Get a massage here.

THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING:
1. Speech Therapist
2. Social Worker
3. Dominatrix** ( is that legal?)

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
1. Fiji
2. Bora-Bora
3. The Rain Forest (in Brazil)

THREE KID'S NAMES:

1. Sasha
2. Caleb
3. Chloe

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1. Be in a musical.
2. Figure "me" Out.
3. Get married. (no time soon)

*All three are true.
** This is not true. (maybe)

Saturday, December 18, 2004

cOmPlaiNiNg

I watched this chick get hit by a car yesterday. It was hysterical! Don't worry, she was fine but I don't feel like elaborating on that right now, I'd rather complain. (already breaking my new years resolution) I have to work three twelve and one 13 hour shift this week and I am pissed. I'm also upset that I missed the party I was suppose to drop by before work. Thanks to my wonderful work schedule I can't remember the last time I went to church (I guess that would explain this post) I've been searching the internet for the remix version of Intro's "Come Inside"(my favorite song) and can't seem to find it anywhere, I am furious about that. I still have last years Christmas Tree sitting on my balcony because it's to heavy for me to carry down three flights of stairs and if one more person (specifically any male) comes over and tells me, "You know, that's a fire hazard." I'm going to scream! Perhaps I'll just throw it off the balcony. The bed I just bought won't stop squeaking which is ridiculous because ... how can I put this... I'll just say it hasn't seen any action. I spent $90 on groceries and left the store with 3 bags. I'm sick of working the night shift. I'm pissed off that it takes months of exercise to loose 10 pound and just 5 days of laziness to gain it back. I'm about 5 seconds away from giving up on locking my hair and I've only been at it for 4 1/2 weeks. I hope I never hear about Ciara's "Goodies" again. And, In case I haven't mentioned it before I'm SO sick of stupid people . That's it for now.

Monday, December 13, 2004

Marathon

I am so proud of Marama and Rachael!!! They are the only 2 members left standing of the now defunct team 911. They both finished the HI Marathon with all ten toes and almost that many toenails intact. As I type they are probably drinking margaritas on the beach celebrating their major accomplishment (26.2 miles!!!). Although I didn't actually make it to the marathon I feel like I was there with them in spirit. Maybe I'll have a celebratory margarita when I get home tonight!

On to other news.....I am sick. Bleechhh. I HATE being sick. I guess I really shouldn't complain, I can't remember the last time I had the flu. Anyway off to drink OJ and eat soup and all that other getting better stuff your suppose to do.


GREAT!

I have a confession to make. Until the Vibe awards a few week ago I had a small crush on Young Buck. I think it had something to do with that "Shorty Wanna Ride" song. I usually don't go for the ignorant thug type but for him I made an exception . I think it's because he seems so aggressive, rugged, and different from what I'm usually attracted to. I guess I have a bit of a thing for aggressive men..... I'm getting excited just thinking about it :-). Anyway, that's over now. The whole stabbing, fighting, warrant thing killed it and I have a new crush! John Legend!!! He is sssooo cute!! ( giggle- giggle) Once again I'm stepping outside of my dating/attraction guidelines. (must be at least 6 Ft tall, gainfully employed, and able to carry on an intelligent conversation, I usually don't take my ebonics dictionary with me so this is important. I have several others but that's enough for now) He meets most of the afore mentioned criteria however he is almost a foot below the height requirement. I guess we all have to make exceptions from time to time. Anyway, his show was great. You would think I'd be able to come up with a more descriptive word but great sums its up nicely....great band, great songs, great background singers, great stage presence, great. I swear if I ever date a man who can sing and play piano or any other instrument I'm going to be in big trouble...so is he for that matter. Not only was the show great the rest of the night was great as well. Prior to the show we had dinner at Houston's where I drank the biggest Gin/Vodka martini I've ever seen. My memory is a bit foggy after that point. (I suppose the extra drinks at the show didn't help either) I forgot my camera at home so the only pictures I have came from a camera phone but I guess I'll include them anyway.


While we're on the subject of music I have a question. A friend and I were trying to figure out WTF Lil Wayne is talking about during his verse in Destiny's child's song "Soldier"? You know that part where he says:

Hey, see cash money is a army

I'm walkin' wit purple hearts on me

You talkin' to the sergeant

Body marked up like the subway in Harlem

Call him, weezy f baby, please say the baby (WHAT????!)

If you don't see me on the block I ain't tryna hide blend in wit the hood, I'm camouflage

Bandana tied, so mommy join my troop

Now every time she hear my name she salute

I don't know why I care.....He probably doesn't even know himself.

Sunday, December 12, 2004

New Year, New Me.

New Year, New me. That's the way it suppose to work right? I usually don't make New Years resolution but perhaps I'll start 2005 off differently. So here's the top 20 in no particular order:

1) Re-commit myself to discovering who I actually am.
2) Open myself emotionally to fully experience life.
3) Deepen my relationship with God.
4) Take Salsa lessons.
6) Go back to belly dancing lessons.
5) Go back to guitar lessons.
6) Finally finish that damn math class!!!
7) Re-commit to paying off bills instead of making more.
8) Save for a house (2 year plan)
9) Change my diet, to be healthier and to possibly loose weight.
10) Learn to be a more disciplined person in all aspects of life.
11) Take a temporary hiatus from dating until goals 1-3 are reached.(1 year max!)
12) Run a marathon.
13) Spend more time in prayer and less complaining!
14) Learn to accept that things don't always go as planned.
15) Learn to appreciate my own value.
16) Learn to stand up for myself without stepping on others.
17) Learn to not be so selfish.
18) Learn to be more selfish in some situations.
19) Find a path and stick to it.
20) Sing and use the gifts that God gave me.

Sunday, December 05, 2004

Help Wanted

Not much to say today. I took off from work tomorrow to go see John Legend at Slims in SF (and perhaps to do a little shopping as well). Also I really really want one of these.
I know, I know, I don't actually need it but who else could say they have there very own helper monkey?!

99 Problems....

I've gotten so many of those fill in the blank emails that I never respond to I've decided to do one once and for all. (Yvette, Shanae ...That means no need to send anymore)

INSTRUCTIONS: Copy this whole list into your journal. Bold the things that are true about you. Whatever you don't bold is false. (I got this from someone else's blog)

01. When I was younger, I made some bad decisions
02. I don't watch much TV these days
03. I love crab
04. I love sleeping
05. I own lots of books
06. I wear glasses or contact lenses (I need to wear my glasses but I usually don't.)
07. I love to play video games
08. I've tried marijuana (who me, never! )
09. Question deleted
10. Question also deleted ( you don't need to know all my business)
11. I have been the psycho-ex in a past
12. I believe honesty is usually the best policy
13. I have acne free skin
14. I think the president is "dumber than a bag or rocks."
15. I curse frequently (only sometimes after drinking)
16. I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.
17. I have hobbies
8. I've been told I: (women) have an applebottom, (men) am packing.
19. I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me
20. I'm really, really smart
21. I've never broken someone's bones
22. I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal
23. I hate the rain
24. I'm paranoid at times (I'm paranoid most of the time)
25. I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free
26. I need money right now
27. I love Sushi
28. I talk really, really fast
29. I have fresh breath in the morning ( How would I know I don't get up till 3pm)
30. I have semi-long hair (used to, I cut it, now it's growing back)
31. I have lost money in Las Vegas
32. I have at least one brother and/or one sister
33. I was born in a country outside of the U.S.
34. I shave my legs (females) or face (males) on a regular basis
35. I have a twin
36. I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyes in the past
37. I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.
38. I like the way that I look (usually)
39. I have lied to a good friend in the last 6 months
40. I know how to cornrow
41. I am usually pessimistic
42. I have a lot of mood swings
43. I think prostitution should be legalized
44. I think Charles Woodson is hot (even though I never use the word "hot")
45. I have cheated on a Sig. O. in the past
46. I have a hidden talent (wouldn't u like 2 know what it is "evil laugh" )
47. I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have
48. I think that I'm popular
49. I am currently single
50. I have kissed someone of the same sex
51. I enjoy talking on the phone (except at work)
52. I practically live in sweatpants (yep, it allows more room for my food binges)
53. I love to shop
54. I would rather shop than eat
55. I would classify myself as ghetto
56. I'm bourgie and have worn a sweater tied around my shoulders
57. I love my job.
58. I think OJ did it.
59. I think I have a nice singing voice.
60. I voted for Bush.
61. I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother
62. I have a cell phone
63. I believe in God
64. I watch MTV on a daily basis
65. I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months
66. I love drama
67. I have never been in a real relationship before ( I think I've been in to many)
68. I've rejected someone before
69. I currently have a crush on someone ( *sigh* sadly not)
70. I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life
71. I want to have children in the future
72. I have changed a diaper before
73. I've called the cops on a friend before
74. I bite my nails
75. I am a member of the Tom Green fan club
76. I'm not allergic to anything.
77. I have a lot to learn
78. I have dated someone at least 10 years older or younger
79. I plan on seeing Ice Cube's newest "Friday" movie (wait...there's another one?)
80. I am very shy around the opposite sex (most of the time, if I'm attracted to him/her
81. I'm online 24/7, even as an away message
82. I have at least 5 away messages saved
83. I have tried alcohol or drugs at a party
84. I have made a move on a friend's Sig. O. in the pas
t85. I own the "South Park" movie
86. I have avoided assignments at work to be online
87. When I was a kid I played "the birds and the bees" with a neighbor or chum
88. I enjoy country music ( I'm embarrassed to admit I do like some of it.)
89. I would die for my best friends ( I'm not really sure about this one)
90. I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza
91. I watch soap operas whenever I can ( Y & R, Bold & the Beautiful, ATWT, Guiding Light )
92. I'm obsessive, anal retentive, and often a perfectionist ( just the opposite)
93. I have used my sexuality to advance my career
94. I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all (his music)
95. I know all the words to Slick Rick's "Children's Story"
96. Halloween is awesome because you get free candy
97. I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it
98. I have dated a close friend's ex
99. I'm happy as of this moment

Tuesday, November 30, 2004

Bon Voyage!

Praise God!!! I made it through another week of work. My Friday has finally arrived! (I work Friday-Monday 7pm-5am lucky me!) Anyway, I don't have any major week-end (week day) plans besides starting my dreaded Christmas shopping even though most of my friends and family will be the lucky (or unlucky depending how you look at it) recipients of knitted scarves made by me. ( I've had a little too much free time lately) I'm suppose to report for jury duty later this week but I think the summons got lost in the mail....yeah that's what happened.

Oh how could I forget... I'm going on a cruise and I'm so excited! My Mom, Grandma, Uncle, Uncle's Partner, and I are going on a 7 day cruise from Venice to Rome in September. We are going on this cruise line. We're suppose to arrive in Venice 2 days early to hang out then hang over 2 days in Rome at the end. I'm also going on a little jazz cruise with my Mom in January which should be fun. I feel kinda guilty about spending so much money on trips when I should be paying off credit cards and saving to buy a house but you only live once right? Well, bye for now have a great week!

Monday, November 29, 2004

IGNORANCE

Okay.... So I think I've calmed down enough to talk about this. A couple of weeks ago a friend and I visited Adela's Yarn Store in Castro Valley. (5 Minutes from Oakland) Actually let me back it up a bit. After lounging around on a rainy day listening to Jill Scott in sweatsuits (cute one's of course :-) a friend (who happens to be white) and I decided to buy some yarn for new projects. We looked in the phone book and found a yarn shop 5 minutes away from her house. I walked into the shop before her and was immediately approached by a salesperson who looked at me from head to toe then sneered, "Can I help you with something?" I replied, "No thanks." and started looking around. She rolled her eyes and walk away but continued to watch me as I walked around. At that point I probably should have left but stupid me decided to stay. (The next closest yarn shop was 30 minutes away I didn't want to drive that far in the rain.) My friend came in shortly after I did and began shopping. Periodically we would compare items then go back to separate areas of the store. During one of the times we were apart I happen to be standing behind the salesperson who greeted me at the door. She was talking to another customer and didn't have the common sense to make sure no one was in earshot before she started talking shit. She tells the lady in front of her " Could you not stand in front of me I am trying to watch THOSE GIRLS!" ( I guess my friend was guilty by association) I was flabbergasted!! I was so angry I dropped what I was planning to buy, grabbed my friend, and headed for the door. Just before I walked out I realized I had to say something to her. I took a few deep breaths, buried my hands in my pocket so that I wouldn't punch her, and walked back in. When she noticed me coming back she actually looked scared. The same customer was still with her so I faced both of them and told her that I had no intention of stealing anything. Of all the things on earth I could steal why in the hell would I pick a yarn shop in Castro Valley as the place to do the deed?! Please!! WHO would steal yarn? I work for a Police Dept for goodness sake ( not that it makes any difference mind you) Anyway, she goes, " OH, (he-he) I wasn't talking about you two girls...I was talking about those other girls." Now, you know and I know that there were no other "Girls" in the shop. As a matter of fact there were no other people in the shop at all. At that point I ended the conversation because I realized that not only was she ignorant she was also a liar. I left the store in a foul mood and was grouchy for several hours afterwards. I ended up driving all the way to a crafts store in Pleasanton and never found what I was actually looking for.

I decided the next day to write a letter to the owner of the store explaining what happened just to see if I would get any response. Then I started thinking that perhaps she was the owner and it would be pointless for me to waste my time. The jury is still out on that but perhaps I will write the letter, then decided afterwards if I want to send it. What do ya think? I think it's very sad that even in one of the most culturally, ethnically, and financially, diverse areas in the nation ignorance like hers still exists. I almost wish I could sit down and talk to her and maybe help her to understand that she has no reason to be afraid of people who are different from her. Or, no reason to be that stupid but that would take all day.

Just so that this whole post isn't negative I do have some good news. After 5 hours of complaining, arguing, bitching, moaning, pleading, fighting, and 2 missed delivery dates with Levit's my new bedroom set finally arrived!!! It is massive and way to big for my room but I love it anyway. Now if I could just get it all to fit.......................

Sunday, November 28, 2004

Stupid Callers (part II)

FYI....For all of you that don't already know 911 is for LIFE or DEATH emergencies understand! No, a live rat swimming up your toilet is not considered an emergency. The shopping cart flipped over in the middle of intersection that your stupid ass could have moved would not count as an emergency either. Hopefully that clears things up.

ME: 911, What's your emergency?
Caller: I need the number to Blockbuster Video.
ME: Are you aware that you called 911?
Caller: Um, yeah!
ME: Are you aware that 911 is for life or death emergencies?
Caller: Yeah, but you guys are so much faster than 411!!! Plus, I just saved myself 75 cents!
~END CALL~

ME:911, What's your emergency?
Caller: Does time change today? You know that whole day light savings thing?
ME: Yes, but what is your emergency, why are you calling 911?
Caller: I need to know what time it is and I forgot the number for popcorn.
ME: It's time for you to get a watch idiot! (okay, I didn't actually say that part but I wanted too!)
~END CALL~

PEOPLE ARE SUCH IDIOTS!!!!!!

Saturday, November 27, 2004


Josh says Happy Thanksgiving too...but his silly Aunt could not figure out how to include this picture in the last post.
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Happy Thanksgiving from Mom, Me, and Grandma!!!
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Tuesday, November 23, 2004

Happy Turkey Day!

Friday, November 19, 2004

Freedom!

Im free!!!!! I finally worked up the nerve to do what I've wanted to do for years. After several hairstyles ranging from a very long weave to a very short pixie cut I have given up the creamy crack! No more burning scalp and eyes! No more hiding from fog, rain, wind, and anything else that could potentially ruin my hairstyle! No more chemicals that I think were (in part) causing my migranes! No more avoiding combs, brushes, and anything else that could scratch my scalp prior to salon visits in order to avoid chemical burns. No more spending ridiculous amounts of money on hair products that never lived up to their promises. NO MORE, NO MORE, NO MORE!!! On November 17 2004 at 2:30 pm my addiction officially ended.

I have taken the first step on what I hope will be a long journey of self discovery. (That sounds so much more dramatic than I usually am) Anyway, here's the long and short (he-he) of it. I spent 4 hours taking down my last set of human hair braids. (some of which I left in the garbage at work :-) I then had a stylist cut off the last few inches of relaxed hair. He also dyed what was left (perhaps 3 1/2 inches) Copper and twisted it into tiny coils ( or baby locks). I thought I would be stressed out when the big day arrived but oddly enough all I felt was relief. When he turned the chair around to show me the finished product I couldn't stop smiling. I'm not saying that it won't be (and has been) a big adjustment but it's not as bad as I expected. All of the comments I've heard thus far have been positive. (Even from people who don't like it) Anyway, I've decided that I like it and that's all that matters. The stylist warned me that starting locks is a long process with several stages. He says that I will go through what he called an "Ugly Stage" but I guess I'll cross that bridge when I get to it. I think this will be a huge commitment but, so far so good.

This is what I've learned (realized) so far. My value, beauty, and self worth are not tied to what my hair or any other external part of me looks like. My value comes from who I am as a child of GOD, how I treat others, and what I think of myself. (and FYI I like myself quite a bit :-) I guess grandma was right after all.

Monday, November 08, 2004

Naked Drummer

Have you ever noticed that everyone around you seems to be going through the same issues at the same time? I don't mean the actual details of each situation. They just all seem to be on the same page, you know. I was talking to an old friend about how unhappy I am with my life at times. I told him I was going through somewhat of a rebellious faze and that I wanted to shave off all my hair and go beat a drum naked in a park somewhere. Okay... I don't actually plan to go beat a drum naked in a park somewhere (eww bugs!) and you already know about the hair thing. The point is I'm so tired of doing what I'm suppose to do...you know the whole work, pay bills, be a responsible member of society thing. He said he felt exactly the same way. His life turned out nothing like he expected it to and he thinks this may be his last chance to get on track before old age kicks in. (Sadly, For him that means 30) I think they should tell you at the end of High School don't make any plans cause most of that shit won't happen and what you want will change at least 5000 times before you figure it out. (IF you figure it out...I haven't yet.) Anyway I seem to have lost the point I was trying to make. I guess this is just more pointless ranting that you had the misfortune to read.
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Aim High

I have got to get back to the Gym! I haven't been for the last 2 weeks (well honestly I haven't been for at least a month but I think that one 30 minute work out should count for something, don't you?). Since I decided not to run the marathon my workout routine has slowly deteriorated from 5-6 days a week to 1 day a month. In the beginning I told myself " It's okay, I need to let my body recuperate from all that running." Then I realized I was neglecting my TV habit. Then well...you get the point it just went downhill from there. Anyway it's time to get back on the horse so I think that will be my November goal. I will go to the gym at least 6 time a week. Yeah, that's what I'll do aim high. I figure if I shoot for 6 times a week I should make it at least 4 times (I hope). Hopefully that will be enough to help me loose the 10 pound I've regained since my birthday. Or perhaps it will prevent the 10 pounds I usually gain during the holiday season from showing up. Damn that's depressing!!! Well, this is so boring its giving me a headache so I'll go now.

Saturday, November 06, 2004

Defeat

So much time has passed since my last post I seem to have forgotten how. It took me almost 10 minutes to remember my password.....Anyway my blogging strike is officially over. The management and I have reached a compromise however I am not at liberty to discuss the specific terms. Basically.... My war with the worlds slowest computer is over. I have conceded defeat, kinda like Kerry .....even though I think he actually won. I have accepted the fact that I will have to deal with my old clunker until I have enough money to buy another one (which won't be any time soon). Management (the computer) has agreed not to crash for no apparent reason or turn itself on in the middle of the night. I have in turn promised to get DSL and stop downloading unnecessary files (in other words, anything). I was also required to buy it an acceptable home ( a hutch) and take it off the kitchen floor. So far things are working out nicely but I'll keep you posted.......

On to other topics......There really isn't anyway I could update you on all that has happened since my last post. I have gotten over Rick James' untimely demise, I've accepted the fact that our country (or should I say the yokels) have voted in a Monkey for president, and I am no longer running the marathon (could not raise that much money). I have been blessed with the opportunity to sing several time even with my hellacious schedule at work. I had to turn down several upcoming dates for the same reason. Yup I still work at the PD ....Any job is better than no job I suppose. I've decided to cut off all my hair and grow it out again without a perm. I'm a little nervous about that but I guess its just hair. It will grow back...right!? I have taken up knitting again however I won't be blogging about that very often. I have a sneaking suspicion that blogging about knitting may be addictive and, I happen to think that most* blogging knitter are a wee bit strange. Plus, I think you are required to have a cat to join that club. Steve and I are......Well.... I guess the best way to put it is, Steve and I are Steve and I. We are in our usual on again off again cycle. However, we have been getting along quite well and even if we never work out we will always be friends. I went to see Rachelle Ferrell at Kimball's last week. I was suppose to go with my aunt however she faked on me so I went alone and Steve met me there later. All I can say was A-MA-ZING!!! She was wonderful as usual . Well, I think I have used the word "I" enough times for one day so I think I will end this now.

*Some knitting bloggers are wonderful normal people like Rachael who I think can fly. (She hasn't admitted it yet)


Tuesday, August 10, 2004

I'm Rick James B****!

Okay so it's been forever since I blogged but I heard the worst news the other day. Rick James is dead!!! Can you believe it? They say he died in his sleep of natural causes but come on now.........Natural causes!!? Did you see the BET awards? He's Rick James B**ch! Anyway RIP Rick.

Saturday, June 26, 2004

Misc

....Busy, busy, busy, so this will be very short. Went to No Doubt/Blink 182 concert, saw Hairspray, ran 4 miles in San Francisco with Rach and Rama, did a few other misc things...pictures next post...Bye.

Friday, June 18, 2004

Take me out to the ballgame!


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Okay...let me start by saying that I have the slowest computer in the world!!! It took me 2 hours to transfer my pictures from my new digital camera (I finally stepped into 2004 and bought one!) and to download a new program to post them. I realize now that there is no way around getting DSL. (It's either that or throw this POS computer out the window!!) Also if there happen to be any porno links at the bottom of this post please disregard them. My computer has some type of strange virus that I can't seem to remove....anyway if it does they have NOTHING to do with me. :-)

I had a great (way too short) weekend. Maya (Steve's daughter) and I saw Shrek and hung out Tuesday night. It amazing how quickly kids grow!!! Last year this time she was almost 5'3...Now she is almost 5'7! (A little taller than me but we won't tell her that!) Kell and I also went to a baseball game at SBC park.(that's where the picture was taken) I think the Giants were playing the.....ummmm, Well I'm not really sure who the other team was but I could give you a full description of the players (height weight measurements etc....) We had great seats (which added to my viewing pleasure!) We spent most of our time discussing the strange people around us and trying to avoid any incoming balls. Kell was convinced she was going to get hit with one and I'm actually surprised she didn't. She is a bit of a S**t magnet but that okay... It just makes her more entertaining to be around. Thank God the night ended without any major catastrophes.

I went to a voice lesson Thursday before going in to work some much needed overtime. We spent most of the hour working on techniques for unlocking my voice and helping me relax. It felt more like a session with a therapist than a voice lesson but I guess singing can be therapeutic. I'm thinking about going back into the studio to record some of the newer songs I've written. It's been several years but I'm sure it will all come back to me.....hopefully



Howdy!


HOWDY
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No, I don't plan to post picture of myself all the time however this was the only way I could figure out how to change my profile picture. (not that you needed to know all that :-) Anyway Halloween is over and I guess the wig and costume did look a bit odd in June. (or so I've been told) See ya!

Tuesday, June 15, 2004

Ready..Set...Go

So, my first run went very well. I went to the San Leandro Marina which was pretty much deserted (except for several skunks that I carefully avoided). Before I started running I told myself that I would run 2 miles, then take a break. Well guess what?! Amazingly enough I ended up running 3 miles in 37 minutes. I know, I know not all that impressive, but for me it's great! Now that I've gotten over the first hurdle I guess my next challenge will be fund raising. I'm giving myself the weekend to come up with a strategy....Or perhaps I'm just procrastinating as usual.

I'm so excited! I'm going to a baseball game at PacBell Park (or whatever it's called this week) with Kell. I haven't been to a game since I was 7 so this should be fun.(especially since I can drink this time:-) I'm also suppose to go to the "No Doubt" concert on Saturday with Vett. I have a few other plans but I guess I'll tell you about those later. TTFN!


Monday, June 14, 2004

Mile #1

It's official!! After much contemplation and deliberation I've finally decided to bite the bullet and fax in my Aids Marathon enrollment form. I think the marathon will provide a great opportunity for me to push my limits and boundaries a bit. That means I have exactly 78 days to raise $2975.00 (thanks to a donation from Laura) and six months to condition my body to run 26.2 miles. I am so nervous!! I hate asking for money. I think that may stem from my fear of rejection.....If you never ask you can't be rejected. It doesn't help that most of my friend are starving artist, students, or shall we say fiscally challenged. Perhaps I should look at it as an opportunity to work through one of my many many issues. I'm also worried about training on my own. I am SO not a solitary person but I'm going to have to do this (almost) completely on my own. Scary!!! Training also means that I will have to limit my favorite activity (sleeping) for the next six months to accommodate my hectic work schedule. But...I guess they say "No pain, no gain." Anyway my official training program will commence this morning at 5:00am...Wish me luck! :-)

On to other topics.....You will notice that I have not posted in quite a while. The reason you ask? Well, my life has been so boring that I decided to spare myself the torture of writing about it. The most exciting thing I did was going to a graduation party for Shanae(my old roommate). I arrived early and hung out with her family for about an hour then headed to work. (Of course none of my friends showed up at the party until after I left but what else is new!) I got my car tuned up for $250.00 instead of $700 the Volkswagen dealership wanted to charge me. (Thank God!!!) and Steve's daughter came to town for the summer. Yep...That's about it.

Sunday, June 06, 2004

Picture.


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I decided to try posting a picture. This picture is from Halloween 2003. It was suppose to end up in the profile section but I must have done something wrong...Anyway now that I've figured it out I guess I'll post pics more often.

Update

Okay...As usually I'm having a really hard time making up my mind. (What else in new) I was excited about doing the Aids marathon until I went to the first meeting. Originally my biggest fear was raising $3000.00 by August 31st but now I'm worried about training. The training program was created for people with normal work schedule and weekends off. Ideally I would need to run Saturday or Sunday with a trainer at 8am. I don't get off work on Fridays until 3am (or sometimes 5am) and running up to 26 miles after 3 hours of sleep doesn't seem like a good idea. I do have the option of training on my own but this is my first marathon so I need the moral support of other people struggling as much as I am to keep me motivated. I now have one week to decided what I'm going to do. I hate making decision !!!!!!!!!!

I had a really nice weekend. I repped a co-worker Tuesday night. Wednesday I drove along the coastline to Stinson Beach. The weather was great (no fog) and the beach was almost deserted. Actually let me clarify that. The portion of the beach I settled on was deserted with the exception of one couple. The male looked to be about 75 years old. I would guess the female was about 35. While she tanned and napped he alternated between trying to surf and flying a kite. Every 15 minutes or so he would creep back over to see if she was sleeping. After confirming that she was actually asleep he climbed under her blanket, slipped off his short, and well.....use you imagination but I finally realized why everyone else was sitting so far away from them. Anyway I'm not really into porn (especially live!) so I moved. I stayed for several more hours then took a leisurely drive home. Thursday I went shopping and Friday I took off early and saw "The Day After Tomorrow" at the movies. TTFN.

Tuesday, June 01, 2004

All Donation Accepted

I'm trying to blog more often but I don't have anything to say.....Actually I do. I think I need neck and stomach liposuction so I've started saving money. I found .53 cents lying on the ground and a dollar in my pocket. Guess I'll go home and check between the couch cushions.....

Monday, May 31, 2004

Things that suck!

Thanks to a terrible migrane and allergies my 3 days off turned into 4. Being sick is always a special treat for me.....When I miss a day at work it usually means that several people are working really long (up to 15 hour) shifts to make up the difference. It also means that if they had any plans they're canceled. You would think that once you'd called in for the day (or night in my case) and got back into the bed again the worst part is over. WRONG!!! That's when the fun begins. First there's guilt. Guilt, because you're not at work and feel like you are possibly the laziest whiner on earth. Next up to bat...Paranoia. What if my phone rings, and its work, and I don't hear the phone, so I don't answer cause I'm sleeping, or what if they send someone to my house, just to make sure that I am actually at home,(and not just playing hookie) and I'm at the pharmacy picking up medicine, and then I have to write a memo explaining why I needed to pick up tampons and tylenol to the chief of police, or what if.....You get the idea the list goes on and on... If I make it through the first two stages then I start thinking about what everyone is saying..."She not actually sick!" "I bet she's out having a great time somewhere!" "That was the best excuse she could come up with..pathetic!" Then on top of all that if you forget to look at your schedule (which I did)and find out later in the worst way possible that you were suppose to be working for someone else who is now stuck at work.(and understandably not too happy about it) Well that was my sick time/weekend in a nutshell. How was yours?

Wednesday, May 26, 2004

AARRGGGHH

I think I talked to every idiot on earth today. I worked eight hours of overtime that felt like eight years. I got into an argument with a dispatcher from another city. But now, THANK GOD!!! I'm off for 3 days!!! Woo-Hoo!

Tuesday, May 25, 2004

Crossing Paths

I met James today. He was standing in front of Albertson's in San Leandro reading a book. He asked me if I needed my windows washed. He's the type of person I usually give whatever spare change I have, then continue on my way. Today was a little different. Without making eye contact I told him "I don't need my windows washed" as I handed him a dollar. He responded, "I don't want a handout. My food tastes better when I've earned it." I stopped walking, turned around, and faced him. I thought to myself, that's unusual. I'm use to being asked for money but I've never had anyone refuse to take it. I explained to him that I'd just gotten a new windshield (finally!!!) and that I couldn't get it wet for another day. Then I noticed that he was reading "The Purpose Driven Life" by Rick Warren. I just finished reading that book so I asked him what he thought of it. He said that he was tired and had been homeless for several years. He believed that the only way for him to turn his life around was by seeking Gods plan for his life. He said that he'd just finished reading the first two chapters and was amazed at how little he knew about God's forgiving,loving, non-condemning nature. He said he was happy to hear that God has a plan for everyone's life, his included and that he is determined to find out what that plan is. We talked for a few more minutes then I did my shopping. He was still standing in the same spot as I left the store so he pushed my shopping cart to the car and loaded my groceries for. (FYI... I don't normally do that kind of thing but I was parked directly in front of the store and there were several people around.) We talked a few more minutes then I headed home. On my way home I thought about how wonderful God is. No matter what, age, race, sexual preference, or walk of life you come from God loves all of us and wants to have a relationship with us. Under his own power James has been unable to fight his way out from under his problems but with God I fully believe his life is about to take a new path. I also realized how trivial my problems are when compared to his and how truly blessed I am. I don't know where my path in life will take me but as long as I stay grounded in God the possibilities are limitless. "For everything, absolutely everything, above and below, visible and invisible,....everything got stated in him and finds its purpose in him." Colossians 1:16 (MSG)

Monday, May 24, 2004

Ode To Food

I guess now would be a good time to update my weight loss (or lack of weigh loss) progress. I have been exercising consistently for 5 months. My total weight loss is about 8 pounds. I was shooting for 20 so obviously things have not been going as well as planned. Although I have no problem going to the gym a minimum of 4 times a week I just can't seem to stop eating. I've realized that I have an eating addiction. I enjoy eating almost as much as I enjoy sleeping. (pathetic..I know) I am the happiest girl on the planet when I have a big juicy steak, a baked potato, and a glass of wine in front of me. (no veggies!!) Ummmmm I'm salivating just thinking about it!!!! Anyway I guess the first step to recovery is admitting you have a problem.

I got tired of the old format so I changed it a bit, I think I may add some pictures later. Oh yeah, I talked Kell into doing a blog. (Not that you can really talk Kell into anything she doesn't want to do.) Anyway its HERE if you wanna visit. Time for my appointment with the elliptical machine. Ta Ta!

Saturday, May 22, 2004

" Drum roll please." I have an announcement to make (no, this is not the big news I talked about in a prior post).....I am going to be running a marathon! Yup, you heard me right. The junk food queen is running a marathon. I have decided to make a commitment to improving my health and this is the perfect opportunity to do so. I will be running the AIDS marathon in Oahu HI. on Sunday December 12. That gives me approximately six months to increase the distance I can run without stopping from 3 miles to 26.2 miles (ughh!) and to raise $3000.00. I will be running on a team comprised of 3 people I work with plus me. (Rama, Rach, Kell, & Me) I'm a little nervous about raising that much money ($3000.00 each) but we are working on several different fund raising ideas so hopefully it will all work out.

Not many people can say what I am about to say.... I work with some of the nicest people!(Dispatchers) Although we fight from time to time and get on each other nerves we are very supportive of each others dreams and aspirations. I came to work in the worst mood one night (which is not unusual). I was exhausted, and felt ambivalent about the whole music thing. Everything I tried seemed to be failing. I looked in my box and found a note from Trish that said she had spoken with someone about my looking for a band. She printed out an entire website with the details of the band and gave me the name and number of the contact person. I hadn't worked with Trish for a while so we hadn't talked about my singing (or not singing). After reading her letter I was re-motivated (is that a word?) to give it another shot. I immediately found a voice lesson teacher to prepare me to audition and as a result I have been offered several other opportunities. I haven't actually called the band yet (I didn't feel ready) but I will be calling soon. It's so nice to have people around who are interested in your success and happiness. Thanks Trish!!!

......I am still a freak magnet! (I know, big subject jump)Before work I went to Beverly's Fabrics to find some yarn that would inspire me to start a new project. While standing in the yarn aisle an employee of the store walks up to me and says "Do you have a second? I need to get your opinion on something." I said, "Sure, what's up?" He proceeded to tell me that on his way home from work one day he was flagged down by a female walking down the street with several bag. She asked him to take her to the hospital because she could not afford a cab. He agreed to take her and as she got into the car he asked her what she had in her bags. She told him, "None of your Mother F***** business!" He said he felt insulted but took her to the hospital anyway. After dropping her off and driving home he realized that she had left one of her bags in his back seat. He had no way of finding her and was not sure what to do. He said he couldn't decide if he should look in the bag or not and asked me what I would do if presented with a similar situation. I told him I would definitely look inside. He nodded his head and began to walk away. I then asked him "Well......What did you decided to do?" He said, "I opened it." Now my curiosity got the best of me so I asked him "What was in the bag?" He smiled, then said " None of you Mother F***** business!" and walk away laughing. I stood there for a second feeling like a fool then walked out of the store. Sometimes I wonder if I have a sign on my head that reads "If you have no common sense and haven't bathed in the last year come talk to me." I'm not really sure what draws all of the weirdos out of hiding when I'm around but if you figure it out please let me know. Guess that's it for now. Bye-Bye!

Tuesday, May 18, 2004

45 minutes and 30 seconds to go.......I'm so sleepy yet so happy that my weekend is finally here!! (I wonder how long it will last? Guess I'll find out Friday.) The last few weeks have been rather interesting. I started taking voice lesson with Marco LeDuc two weeks ago. She has an amazing voice and the first lessons have gone quite well. She actually offered me a job singing background for a couple of bands and a singer that I will name later. I am SO excited!!!! I usually don't mention much about my love life (or lack there of) but, why not? After reading an article in Essence magazine I decided to try something a little different so I emailed this guy on one of those online dating websites. I was hesitant but I figured, what do I have to loose?.....Anyway, I ended up having dinner with him a few days ago and suprisingly enough I had a nice time. I expected a complete freak of nature (as Kell would say) to show up but he was normal, no extra arms, or gold teeth . I don't plan to make a habit of the internet hook-up thing but I guess it's always an option.

I have a new obsession!! Salsa dancing! Kelly and I went dancing last week at our favorite spot in Berkeley. After stepping on several toes and almost falling down I realized that perhaps I should arrive early enough for lessons next time but I still had a great time. I am determined to find a regular class at a dance studio but maybe I should find a partner first........

The great job search begins today and.....Ooop time is up! Bye!

Sunday, May 16, 2004

Big "BIG" change is coming.....More on that later.

Monday, May 10, 2004

It's almost a full month later and I am still waiting..... However, I realize that I have to make the best of what I have right now. I think part of my problem is that I have spent most of my life waiting for "The Next Big Thing" instead of enjoying the here and now so I am officially turning over a new leaf.

Here is s a brief summary of recent events. I saw several movies, some good (Man On Fire)(Hildalgo)..Some not so good (Johnson Family Reunion). Hung out at Everett and Jones in Jack London Square with a friend I met last year in dispatch school. Her family owns the restaurant and decided to have an "American Idol" party which turned out to be quite interesting. I made several new friend but due to severe intoxication during the meetings I've determined that pursuing them would not be prudent. Thanks to my decision to stand between two very excited dancing females during the "American Idol" showing I was also on the channel 2 news. I found this out from my mother who called me on my cell phone while I was still at the party. She asks me, "What are you drinking? and why aren't you dancing?" I told her, "Ice-T" which actually wasn't that far from the truth and I actually thought I was dancing! I then asked her how she knew what I was doing and she explains that she and my brother were watching me on the news. Nice!

I am so happy that I don't have any children yet! Don't get me wrong I think they are great but they are even better when you can send them home after a visit. Lea and Josh came over and spent and evening with me last week. We watched the Cat In the Hat at least five times. Bath time was especially fun. Two naked children running around arguing about who was going to take a bath first. It was actually pretty funny. All jokes aside I had a great time but I have a whole new respect for single parents.

Mothers Day was nice although we celebrated a day early. My mom, uncle, uncle's husband, uncles friend,and grandmother had dinner at Scott's in Oakland. The food was wonderful but I had to leave before the main courses arrived.(I Had to go to work of course!) My only regret is not getting to spend more time with my grandmother. I don't know how may more Mother's Day's she will be around so every one we have is special. I am so blessed to have such a wonderful family!!!!

Guess that's it for now. I'm really gonna try to update more often... I promise. TTFN

Sunday, April 18, 2004

.....Waiting......Waiting....Waiting.....Waiting for a new job, a new direction, a new life......

This was going to be another long drawn out complaint about my miserable job but, I think I'll take it another direction. Last week I went out shopping, bought new shoes, and scheduled a hair appointment. Why, you ask. Well, tonight is the one time a year dispatchers are recognized for our accomplishments and I made the mistake of thinking I was actually going. (silly me) I usually don't attend work functions but since Rama was being honored as the dispatcher of the year I wanted to support her. When I found out I wasn't going I was furious but not really surprised. (okay, the complaint part is almost over) Anyway.....As usual, I am stuck at work on a Saturday night at 1:10am. (Now for the good part.) Kell was allowed the night off several weeks prior to the banquet. Like me she went out shopping and bought a new outfit for night. (when you wear a uniform everyday, any occasion is a good reason to go shopping.) When Kell found out that I would not be allowed the night off, instead of enjoying a rare night off with co-workers, and leaving me alone and depressed at work she decided to come into work. How nice is that! Like me she agrees that everyone should be allowed the night of if it's actually a night for dispatcher otherwise I guess they could call it the "Staff" banquet. ( especially since staff will make up the majority of the attendees) I know this is kinda corny but it reminds me of that Dion Warwick song....you know the one that goes " Keep smiling, keep shining, knowing you can always count on me, for sure, that's what friend are for. In good times, in bad time, I'll be on your side forever more, that what friends are for." Okay enough of that.

I have not posted in quite some time...I guess I didn't have anything to say and I hate to talk (or type in this case) just to air my ideas. Nothing all that exciting has been going on. Kell and I went to a Karyoke bar in Berkeley called Shattuck Down Low We drank way too much cheap wine, sang way too many terrible songs (one was a duet), then got hustled by some pool sharks. As usual most of my drinks were free. I think that could be some type of Kell phenomenon... Anytime I go out with her my drinks are free (even coffee!... Maybe someday I'll master that trick for myself). Some drunk guy fell off his chair (almost) into my lap while singing songs from and old episode of Saturday Night Live. Kell seems to think that I need to broaden my horizons and consider dating outside of my race. I think that's great for other people however I am usually only attracted to black men....... But, you never know what the future will bring.......

Rama, her daughter and I went out for coffee, then to Lake Merritt to feed the ducks, and to a Persian restaurant in Fremont recommended by a co-worker later that evening. The food was very different but tasty. We ordered steak and chicken kabobs, and several different types of stuffed raviolli things in yogurt sauce. We sat on the floor surrounded by pillows and piged out! Very busy day after six hours of OT!

Well I guess that's all for now.

Sunday, April 11, 2004

HAPPY EASTER!!!! Have a wonderful day and remember the real reason we celebrate!

Another (short) quick post...... Good weekend. Hung out with Vett, went mini golfing and won!Then met Vetts cousin and friend from out of town for drinks at the Claremont in Berkeley. (Quick story) When we got to the bar there were several couples swing dancing. By the end of the 3rd song only one couple was left so I guess they decided to give us a show. While doing some type of spin throw move (always a bad idea after drinking) the male half of the duo threw his partner onto the stage where the band was playing. She landed on the speaker (on her head) knocking loose the wires, silencing the music, and the entire bar. After sitting for a moment she scraped herself (and her dignity) off the floor and headed for her seat to a round of applause. After the show we played a couple games of pool then headed home. The next day I went shopping in San Jose,( I spend way to much time shopping!) planned to go to Santana Row but ended up at the mall across the street that I have discovered has every store known to man. Went to bible study, talked about atheists, the big band theory,Jews, and other topics. Several interesting viewpoints were discussed. My favorite was an analogy comparing a Swiss watch to the big bang theory , ( I know this is suppose to be a short post but I cant leave this out) It went something like this.... A Christian asks his atheist friend, "how do you believe life was formed?" The atheist replies, "there was this big bang caused by falling stars resulting in the creation of life." The Christian takes off his very expensive Swiss watch and hands it to the atheist. He then asks him, "how do you think this watch was formed?" The atheist replies " A highly trained specialist put the watch together piece by piece then gave it to someone else to add the casing and decoration." The Christian then asked "Do you think that this watch could have appeared out of thin air?" The atheist replied " Of course not! That watch has several intricate parts that only a trained professional would know how to assemble." The Christian said " So let me get this straight, You think that this watch had to have a creator but you believe that you and I appeared as a result of a large bang and the right combination of dirt?" Hopefully no further explanation in necessary. Anyway......back to the weekend, after bible study I went to dinner at LaPinata with friends. That was about it.

Monday, April 05, 2004

This is the email I received regarding yesterdays audition:

Man, I gotta say you have a SPECTACULAR voice!!! No shit. Not only an
amazing tone, but increible control and rhythmic sense. A solid musician as well as having a great voice.
This may sound odd, but you're actually too good for this band. Even if you
held WAY back, the sound would always be your voice, not the band. You're
impossible to just sort of blend in. Does that make sense? You're such a
strong vocalist and presence.
It would be Brandy with some band backing her up. You're great.
Thank you SO much for coming in. It was a real treat to hear you sing my
music.

Overall this was a positive experience but I'm still disappointed. I guess that means back to the drawing board.......Again.

I just wanted to let you know that I hate spelling errors, mistakes, typos, whatever you wanna call them but I just make way to many to correct so deal with it.

......So I finally go to the doctor and what do you think happens? My long lost visitor decided to show up immediately after the appointment. Figures, but I had a great weekend anyway. Never made it shopping with Kell however we did go out for drinks, dinner, pool, and other misc. trouble. I was reminded why alcohol and boredom aren't a good combination. My guitar lesson went well. I'm learning "Beautiful Surprise" by India.arie and I don't really have much else to say about that. Vet, Rama and I had a great time at Yoshi's after shopping all day. That concludes all weekend updates.

Next on the agenda....Music!!! I think I already mentioned that I quit the band I was in for all of 2 weeks. I planned to take a break before finding another one but as usual I changed my mind. I auditioned for an alternative jazz band today. (another Craigslist find...I swear you can find anything on there!!!) The audition went very well considering that I learned 3 songs the night before I had to sing them. I really liked the band members that attended but they are in the process of auditioning several people so I guess I'll just have to keep my fingers crossed.

Let's see.....What else..... I am reading the best book!! Its called "Glorious Appearing" by Tim Lahaye and Jerry Jenkins. Its part of a ten book (I think) series about the last days and the return of Christ. I'm too sleepy to explain anymore about it. (15 min till quitting time!!!) I haven't been to the Gym in 2 weeks thanks to my wonderful work schedule but I am going to start again tomorrow....Or perhaps in a couple of days.

Tuesday, March 30, 2004

I'm so excited!! For the first time in six weeks I will be off my entire weekend!!! No overtime!!!!!! Wednesday, I have a guitar lesson scheduled, then Kell and I are going shopping and to a jazz club/bar/restaurant called Kelly's in Alameda for dinner and drinks. Thursday Rama, her daughter, and I are going (yep you guessed it!) shopping again. Then to Yoshi's for more jazz, sushi, and sake, and to see Regina Carter play her violin. Did I mention I like jazz? I hope to somehow sneak a few cat naps in between activities. Well that's it for now. See ya.

I hate going to the doctor and since I'm rarely sick that's usually not an issue. Unfortunately, I have a little problem that doesn't seem to want to correct itself so off to the doctor I go. (I'll warn you. If you don't like hearing about female issue stop reading right now.) My monthly (unwelcome) visitor usually comes into town right on schedule however, it seems to be on a 2 month... and counting... hiatus. I guess my first concern should be the big "P" word but since I don't have sex or let me correct that, I can't remember the last time I did, I don't thinks that's the problem. (Quick explanation: I believe that God made all of his commandments and rules because he loves us and wants us to be happy therefore I don't allow myself the option of picking and choosing which ones to obey or ignore. Plus experience has shown me that following his commandments makes life so much more peaceful. That being said, I obviously have broken quite a few of those rules but God if very forgiving otherwise he would have struck me down with a bolt of lighting by now!! :-) Perhaps its menopause but I don't think that happens in your twenties. I have been working out quite a bit but in the past exercise has not affected my schedule. So I guess that means I don't have a clue why it's been gone so long but I guess I'll find out on Wednesday.

Sunday, March 28, 2004

OKAY.....So I think I might have some type of online quiz addiction. Most of the ones I have taken tonight have been pretty stupid but this one is hysterical!!!! It's called "What kind of weirdo are you?





what sort of weirdo are you?

this quiz by orsa


I promise, this is the last one.

Saturday, March 27, 2004

THIS IS WHAT MY NAME MEANS:

Brandy, a 2-syllable girl's name of Dutch origin, means: A fiery spirit distilled from wine.

Elise, a 2-syllable girl's name of French origin, means: Consecrated; Gods oath.

I FOUND IT AT THIS WEBSITE.

Not much to say today, weekend was too short, slept a lot, saw Starsky and Hutch, pretty funny, went to bible study, had really bad gas!, tried not to let it out but everyone heard it anyway, (still do actually and Kelly seems to be monitoring my bathroom habits) not sure why, guess I'll have to research that, Get off on time tonight (3am) whoo-hoo, I am starving!!!, Going to breakfast with Kelly at Merritt Bakery to celebrate working together again for the next six month. If one more person tells me to leave because I'm not happy here I'm gonna loose it!!!!, Don't say you weren't warned when it happens. Guess that about it. Oh yeah, Kelly tell Herme I said hi!!!!

Tuesday, March 23, 2004

It's 3:46am and I am Sssssoooo SSSSSlllleeeeeppppyyyy!!!! I'm in my usual spot (my desk at work) with 1 hours 14 minutes, 30 seconds to go, trying to decide if I will be going to the gym when I get off. I have been exposed to a whole new element of people who work out daily. There is the ridiculously muscular man who never seems to leave. I think he may actually live there! Then we have the elderly fellow who wears a white wife beater (tank top) and grey spandex pants that expose ALL of his business ( if you know what I mean). In 2 months of consistent work outs I have yet to see him in a different outfit. Next on the line-up we have the 80 Lbs (when soaking wet) female who prances from machine to machine and stays on just long enough to not break a sweat then, its on to the next one. I guess we will call her "The Gym Bunny". If I were a betting women I would bet that her last 15 dates were people she met at the gym. There is also and elderly female who works out on the weekends. I think she and the elderly gentleman have some type of side relationship going on but I don't have any proof of that just yet. At exactly 5:45 each morning she walks out of the women's locker room with a determined look in her eye, wearing a large tank top (no bra) and a pair of very large dingy white underwear (you know, the old lady kind that also expose all of her business). She walks the same path everyday, around the treadmills, past the sit up bench, past the weight machines to the scale located exactly in the center of the room. She weighs herself, then returns to the locker room using the same path. Never to the right, or the left, always the same path. I guess the scale in the locker room just isn't good enough for her. For the life of me I can't figure out why no one has said anything to her but I guess if I live that long I'm gonna do whatever the hell I wanna do too. Next we have the farting fellow. He only shows up about once a week but when he does it always a gas! (He-HE!) He has a special talent for finding me no matter where I am in the gym and when he does the fun begins. Since I spend so much time on the treadmill I'm usually pretty easy to spot. He starts walking on the treadmill (next to me of course) then around the 5th minute of exercise the farting begins. First quietly, then louder, then the laughing begins. He seems to find himself quite amusing and laughs throughout his entire workout. I am convinced that he waits until I have invested too much time in my workout to relocate myself then, he moves in for the kill. I swear, this world get weirder and weirder everyday. But, I guess I will go to the gym when I get off work. Wouldn't want to miss all the entertainment!!! TTFN

Monday, March 22, 2004

...I know, I know, long time no post....Sorry, but I have a really good reason. Tomorrow will end my marathon 6 day (60 hour) work week and I have been so tired!!! (Luckily I got to work with Rama and Rosa so it wasn't that bad) Anyway this is not going to be a whinny post so on to more pleasant topics. Let see....Where shall I start? Well, I have been quite busy during the last couple of weeks. I went to Dawn's going away party and met a group of very interesting people. Most of us were in our late 20's, single, with no kids. It seems that the late 20's are a time of change and transition for all of us. Everyone was, or is in the process of making career and life changes. Dawn, is moving to LA to become an actress. Vette, (brave girl!)has been working for the same company in the marketing department for several years and has decided to quit her job, go back to school, and actively pursuit her music goals. Bethy, quit her job and is starting a non-profit organization for teenage girls self esteem issues. Everyone else in attendance had equally interesting story's. I'm not really sure where I'm headed but I know a major change is coming and it will include music.

I have been reconsidering buying a home so I went and talked to a mortgage lender. I didn't like him because he was very condescending. He told me that I would qualify for a 100% financing loan however I would still need to come up with $10,000 in closing fees. (ouch!) He also suggested that I pay off a couple more credit cards before moving. I guess that means that in about 6 months (the amount of time it should take me to pay them off) I will either be a home owner or close to debt free!!! Now I need to decide if I want the responsibility of a house or the flexibility and freedom of being able to move at any time. (or being able work at a job where I make less money). Decision, decisions, decisions.......

In other news, I took a trip out to Sacramento and spent a few day with Karran. We went to a Karyoke bar (lots of fun!) and hung out around the house. It was a nice break from my usual surroundings. While there I sang her one of the songs I wrote and she loved it. She loved it so much that she asked me to sing it several times before leaving the next day. Still, it was nice to be appreciated. Guitar lesson have been going very well. I guess all the practicing has been paying off. I just found out that my teacher is going to be moving to San Francisco and I have to decide if I'm going to follow or find a new teacher. I'm leaning towards a new teacher but I'll keep you posted. Guess that's it for now.

Tuesday, March 16, 2004

NEXT POST........Dawn's party, New house, New goals, New job, new song.

CALL 1

ME: 911 What's your emergency?

Caller: (background noise and cussing)My neighbor is stuck on the toilet again?

ME: Excuse me?

Caller: My neighbor is stuck on the toilet again...But this time he is backwards.

ME: Backwards, Can you explain how he got stuck backwards?

Caller: Oh, I don't know but he is wedged in there and we cant pull him out? Can you just send up some help!

ME: Okay, just try to stay calm and I'll get you the fire department.
(end call)


CALL 2
(I didn't actually take this call, a co-worker did so this is my interpretation of what happened!)

Dispatcher: 911 what's your emergency.

Caller: (Heavy breathing) Ma'am I need some help!

Dispatcher: What's wrong sir?

Caller: Well.....you see....It done swole up.

Dispatcher: What swole up sir?

Caller: My Sc.....m (mumbled unintelligible word)

Dispatcher: I don't understand .....What is the problem?

Caller: My sc....m done swole up again, its the size of an orange

Dispatcher: What!?

Caller: (yelling) MY SCROTUM that is S-C-R-O- tum, understand!!! Do you think I need to get it checked?

Dispatcher: (Holding back a laugh) Well sir, that's up to you but I'll go ahead and send you and ambulance.
(end call)

Since I seem to be loosing my memory I have decided to document some of the especially odd calls I take. These 2 are pretty tame compared to some of the others so I guess the are okay to post.

Sunday, March 07, 2004

WHICH BIOLOGICAL MOLECULE ARE YOU?

I AM A PHEROMONE
Pheromone
You are a pheromone. You are seductive and you know
what you want. You have something about you
that permeates the air and draws people to you.
You can get what you want almost without fail,
like some of the sexiest moths out there.


Which Biological Molecule Are You?
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WHAT ARE YOU?

.......After further consideration I have decided to officially quit the band. I figure, I have so little free time now, why spend it working on music I don't even like. So...That's,that. I guess its back to the drawing board.

This weekend I went to see Barber Shop (by myself! Can you believe it?!) Anyway, the movie was hysterical and I think I might go see it again. I also took advantage of a birthday present from Rama (a massage gift certificate) and got a wonderful massage at Pampered man Pampered woman in downtown Oakland near the lake. The owner was friendly, (not pretentious or strange like most of the other spas I have been too) the atmosphere was peaceful, and the masseuse was great. I think Im going to make that a regular habit. I decided to skip my guitar lesson and forgot that I would still have to pay for it. Ugghhh! Now I have to pay $70 for my next lesson and find time to make up for all of the practicing I've missed. I also replaced my missing hubcap and FINALLY got my car washed!! After 9 months without a bath it looked pretty pathetic.

I had Friday night off thanks to a training class. Steve and I went to Kincaids for drinks, then to Dave and Buster's to play pool but after eating dinner (they have the best Catfish!!) we got sleepy and decided to go home. Well, I"m actually starting to bore myself now so I guess I'll go.

Thursday, March 04, 2004

Just when I think I've finally figured out what I want, what I want changes. I was totally convinced that I wanted to be in a band but after last nights practice I'm not so sure. The first practice was....well....I guess you could call it interesting. After and awkward group introduction I was handed a microphone and asked to sing whatever came to mind while they played. While I don't mind being put on the spot and asked to come up with a melody, lyrics are another story. After about 15 minutes they decided to change songs. This pattern continued for about 1 1/2 hours. I decided that it was pointless for me to continue singing (plus my voice was gone, I really need to take voice lessons if I am going to continue doing this) so I asked for a copy of the practice CD and left. I don't know if that was the best decision to make during my first meeting with them... Anyway, later I had a drink with Steve and called it a night. So what do I want now? I think I would like to be in a Jazz trio but, I'm sure I'll change my mind about that too....

Tuesday, March 02, 2004

Okay quick post.......I have 15 minutes till I get off work so here goes..... Weekend plans are: Rewrite 2 of the songs that my band is going to be performing, (Oh, forgot to tell ya, I decided to stay in the band and try to work around my crappy schedule) learn 2 more songs that don't need to be rewritten, go to my guitar lesson that I am tempted to cancel since I haven't been practicing this week (all that OT takes up my free time) go to my first band rehearsal and meet everyone, work OT on Thursday (no surprise there), hang out with Josh, and perhaps at some point get some rest. Oh yeah, all that working out is starting to pay off I lost 7 pounds. Whoo-Hoo!!! Look out Beyonce!! Here I come...... Just kidding :-)

Sunday, February 29, 2004

When it rains, it pours. After working 6 hour of OT on my off day (ugh!) I rear ended someone while trying to drive to my hair appointment. It was raining and as I attempted to stop my car at an intersection I hydroplaned into the vehicle in front of me. The guy driving the car immediately reaches for his neck, then starts to pull over to the right. (I was thinking fool, you know there's nothing wrong with your neck, don't even try it!) I pulled over behind him then all of a sudden he sped off. I though he was trying to find a better place to stop so I followed him but after about a block or so going 50 mph I realized he was trying to get away. At this point my rational side took over. I realized that 1. I rear ended him and was at fault. 2. I already pay enough for car insurance and I don't need my rates to go up and 3. I was going to be late for my hair appointment.( based on the fact that my short hair cut was starting to look like an Afro this was unacceptable) Anyway I stopped following him and went to my appointment. During my 3 hours at the salon the temperature dropped enough that the rain turned into hail the size of quarters (which never happens in Oakland). When I arrived at the shop I made the decision to run from my car to the salon without my umbrella because I was late. I ended up leaving my appointment with a newspaper over my head. I almost fell down on the way back to the car thanks to the hail all over the sidewalk and when I got to the car I found a $50 ticket on my windshield for parking partially in the yellow zone. (working for a police department you would think I'd know better) Overall I guess I should be pretty happy, my car only had a small crack in the bumper and at least the ticket was only $50.

Saturday, February 28, 2004

hmmmm lets see........I've calmed down since my last post. I realize that I either have to take the initiative and find myself a new job,or stop whining and complaining. (although whining is so much easier!) What else...... I went to go see " The Passion" with my Mom, Grandma, and Brother Lance. It was very difficult to watch but overall a great movie. I can really appreciate how much of a sacrifice Jesus made for little ole me. I also tried to see "Monster" but ended up leaving after about an hour because it was too violent. I guess from now on I'll have to stick to romance or comedy.

I went to a baby shower for a friend from high school this weekend. It was so strange to see people I went to highschool with kids. You would think that after 10 years it wouldn't be that odd but they still seem like kids themselves. I am reeeaaaalllllyyyyy glad I don't have any crumb snatchers yet. IM way to selfish, and that would really cut into my shopping budget. Perhaps once I can afford a nanny I'll reconsider. (but then again maybe not) I also made it to bible study this week. We started off discussing Psalms however, by the end of the session the subject switched to fears. Fear of the unknown, fear of taking chances, fear of failure, fear of rejection, and several other types. I felt like God was speaking directly to me and telling me to let go of my fears and trust him. That's something I've been working on and finding a new job will definitely provide an opportunity to step out on faith. Dawn (from bible study) announced that she is moving to LA to pursuit acting. God gives his children so many gifts and I know she will be very successful using hers. I didn't get to know her that well but she is one of the few people I've met that I've liked immediately. She will definitely be missed.

Okay last thing. Some people really enjoy sharing information about themselves that I really don't want to hear. Case in point, Kelly at work. She decided to share a personal medical problem that should have been kept to herself. However since I know she is reading this perhaps I'll give you a little advise Kel. Yogurt....Lots of yogurt. Enough rambling for now.

Saturday, February 21, 2004

I AM SO ANGRY!!!!!!!! Not only did I have to work from 11pm- 9am Friday-Monday for 2 years then 7pm-5am Friday-Monday for six months, I just found out that I'll be working the same crappy shift for six more months! Guess that mean I'll be quitting the band I JUST joined!!! I don't know why I even expected things to get better at that HORRIBLE place. I NEED A NEW JOB NOW!!! I feel like I'm wasting my 20's away rotting in a box answering 911 and listening to stupid people complain about non-issues. If one more person calls about suspicious black males in the area that "just don't look like they belong around here." I swear I'm gonna shoot someone. Well, maybe not shoot them perhaps a beating with an extention cord would be better. I never see my family (and who knows how long some of them will be around) or my friends. I can't remember the last time I got to spend an entire day off with Steve. When the sun comes up my body seems to think it's time to go to sleep and as soon as the sun sets I'm wide awake with the owls and the crack fiends. Well I guess that's enough complaining, plus I realize how blessed I am to have a job at all. I'm gonna have to spend the next couple of weeks praying for a way out of all this....

Monday, February 16, 2004

I had the pleasure of spending a day last weekend with Grandma Tubs, my nephew Josh and my mom. (If your interested we call her Tubs because she was very skinny until she hit her 50's then she gained weight and got kinda tubby hence the name Tubs) I know most people don't enjoy spending time with their families however God has blessed me with a wonderful family of strong black women so I enjoy any chance I get to hang out with them. Anyway....We took Tubs to a doctor's appointment for her high blood pressure. After driving all the way to San Francisco I didn't want to drive my car any further so we took her car to the appointment. She has a 1993 Saturn with 30,0000 miles ( yep that's it) so we all piled in. I reached down to adjust the front seat and grabbed something sharp. It was about the size of a butcher knife with a long curved rusty blade and a wooden handle. When I asked her what it was she replied "girl,that's just my shank for anyone who acts up." I guess I shouldn't have been surprised, she sleeps with a bat next to her bed, would not hesitate to use the arsenal of weapons in her purse, and my grandfather use to call her "The Hammer". (She has just a little bit of a temper problem!) I tried to tell her that she can't drive around with a shank in her car but she said she would do whatever she wanted. My mother just sat in the backseat laughing. (I guess she already knew my attempts to persuade Tubs to my way of thinking were futile) After the doctors appointment Tubs decided she wanted some strawberries and told us exactly what grocery store to go too. She sat in the car while my mother went into the store. Parked in a handicap spot directly across from us was an elderly gentleman wearing a blue satin shirt, (unbuttoned almost to his stomach)several gold chains, black satin pants, and gators (or is it gaiters?). He was shining his car with a towel and flirting with whoever happened to walked by. She looked at me and said, "What is he suppose to be a pimp?" I though so but didn't say anything. She watched him for a little longer then said "The worst fool is an old fool." Well at that point I completely lost it, I was laughing so hard I almost spilled my Soy Caramel Macchiato (my drink of the month) all over the car. We ended our day with dinner and a movie (Veggie Tales, Josh picked it out). Later on that evening I went to Bible Study, Wal-mart, the grocery store, the Gym, then finally to bed.........Goodnight.

Saturday, February 14, 2004

I am not insane,crazy, or delusional however I am totally convinced that Comcast is trying to take over the world!!!! It seems that not only have they monopolized the cable industry and the DSL market,they are now trying to buy the Disney Company!!! What's next?! The entire country and then THE WORLD!!!!! Normally I'm not even remotely interested in things like this however I draw the line when my cable bill is affected! My cable bill was never over $12.00 (for basic cable) until I moved. I only moved about 4 miles however, when I called to have cable re-connected the rep told me the cheapest plan they offered was $65 a month. WTF!!!! Well I made a few threats and told him I would take my business elsewhere! He chuckled and hung up the phone. Can you believe that! Well.....I was gonna show him, or so I thought. I called 411 and asked for the number to the cable companies in my area. That's when I got the bad news, Comcast is now the only cable company in my area!! Ughhhh! Well now I am a Comcast customer and I hate every minute of it. I guess I could always get the dish but that would be way to much work.

On to more pleasant topics.....Guess what I found when I climbed into bed last night! (No, it did not need batteries!) There was a huge basket with candles, soap, and other assorted bath goodies as well as a cute Teddy Bear on my pillow. Steve really has been full of surprises lately! I must be pretty special to get flowers, donuts and a gift basket in one month! (and it's only the 14th!) Speaking of the 14th perhaps I was a little premature with my Happy Valentines day wish but I didn't think I would post again before today so "Happy Valentines Day Again!"

Hey I'm really starting to get the hang of this whole separate paragraph/indenting thing. Go Brandy! In other news.....I got my taxes done today and instead of my usually $300.00 owed this year its $420.00. Isn't that nice. The tax lady said that I make too much money to not own property. I guess I could always have a few tax write offs, oops I mean dependents, oops I mean kids but then I'd really have no money. Oh, actually I have a better idea how about she gives me some money for a down payment and then I'll go buy a house. What do ya think? If you would like to make a donation to the buy Brandy a home fund I accept all forms of credit card, check, or anything else you might have. Thank You.

Drumroll Please.............I Am In A Band!!!!!! Yep you heard me right! The first practice is scheduled for next Saturday and I will get to meet the rest of the band which should be quite interesting, especially since it is largely made up of people found on craigslist. It seems that I will be controlling most of the music style decisions (oddly enough) and hopefully it will all work out well but that's doubtful. So....I've been working out 5 days a week for 2 weeks and my total weight loss is O pound. That sucks! Yet I don't know why I expected anything different. I am really grouchy tonight and don't wanna talk anymore so go away. I SAID GO AWAY!

Tuesday, February 10, 2004

Thank God it's my Friday!!! This has been a long week so I'll keep it short and too the point. Plans: 1) meet that music guy 2)Go visit Tubs in San Francisco 3) Try to get my taxes done at some point and 4)Relax (my favorite part). Valentines day is this Saturday and I have to work so I guess that means no Valentines day activities for me but as Outkast say "Happy Valentines Day- February the 14th!" to you!

Monday, February 09, 2004

I had the nicest surprise this morning. I arrived at the Gym and found Steve peddling away on an exercise bike at 5:30am. Apparently he stayed up all night so that he could come work out with me! How sweet is that!!! We worked out for about an hour before we left. As we walked out the front door I commented that the sun was coming out and it was going to be a nice day. He replied that it was terrible and that he could not imagine having to see the sun rise everyday. Welcome to my world!!! Anyway,we went back to my house and had breakfast. No...... nothing exciting happened. (get your mind out of the gutter!) Steve fell asleep in mid sentence several times before giving in to Mr.Sandman. I should start a new paragraph here but since I usually ignore spelling and grammar rules why change now. I was contacted by another person who posted on craigslist. (yes, I know I have a serious internet addiction problem.) This guy heads up a new band that is looking for a singer. We are suppose to meet next week but considering all of my prior meetings I'm not really expecting much. Gosh I have horrible gas! Have I mentioned that I'm severely lactose intolerant? Tonight I made the mistake of eating noodles in cream sauce and I'm paying the price! (so are my co-workers he-he!) I think my stomach is trying to escape my body through my....Well you probably don't need (or want) to know that so I guess I'll stop here.

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